It's that time of year again. The time when Jews around the world are looking inward and making changes. I am no different. It has been a long year. No. It seems like it has been a very long year. My son would tell me it was no longer or shorter than any other year. There were a lot of changes, though.
The kid is in a new school. I have returned to Bikram Yoga. I published a handful of patterns. I helped my mom through a difficult procedure. New People came into our lives. Some left. Some left in the permanent sense, leaving a gaping wound that feels like it will never be mended. Through it all there was the knitting.
Knitting keeps my hands busy and my mind (relatively) calm. The design process is complicated, challenging and rewarding. It has reunited me with a former self. One who I thought I had left behind. It turns out she was just taking a back seat while I did what I had to do. The other night, I tried a new guided meditation. If I can find the link, I will add it here. Towards the end, I was faced with my inner child. I hugged her and began sobbing and apologizing over and over again. It seems I have not been very kind to her. I have been very demanding and unfair. I see that now. At the end of the day, we are all doing the best we can.
In the year going forward, I am going to be kinder to myself. I am going to design when I can. I am going to keep up with the yoga (more on the unbelievable things about that in another post). I will try to eat better. I will try to keep all of those promises we make to ourselves every year. Through it all, I will carry my trusty knitting.
Always Faithful. Always Knitting. Semper Knitting? Does that even work?
Until next time,
deb